whatchu all about.

today was one of those earth shifting kind of days. one of those days where you start thinking about who you are and what you’re all about. and let me tell you it’s a little intimidating to come to terms with.

I was sitting in sacrament meeting looking at the city of Jerusalem, a city filled with stories of prophets and of Christ. two members of the seventy were speaking to us. I was in the middle of 71 kids who are the definition of goodness. and I started thinking how can I be more like the amazing examples that I’m surrounded by? but more importantly I wondered: how did these people come to be so good? 

after thinking about it. I decided I may be a little guilty of going through the motions in life for the past while. floating through each day a little aimlessly. not being intentional with my opportunities and my time. not becoming something better. let me tell you—this is extremely tragic + irresponsible. I feel like I haven’t taken the time to sit down and think REALLY hard about what I want to be all about. and I’m a little embarrassed to admit that I’m still figuring this out. (except maybe the lesson is that this is a lifelong process too?)

I know it sounds like I’m having an identity crisis. but I think it’s a good one. I just feel like I need to spend some time this summer thinking about what’s really important to me—with all the distractions of normal life left at home. I hope that once I figure that out, those things that I want to define myself by will guide my actions and decisions, which will hopefully shape me into a better person. because I have a lot of room to become better in.  

that’s all I got. so…yeah. I’m going to be thinking about that big question for a while. wish me luck.